quien dijo que era asi.?

as much as i wanna say i believed in more..somehow i know i didnt. 
i heal..and then i bruise again..but then again..one never fully heals..its an ongoing process..its a cycle.
ill never be understood.and its not because life has fucked with me.
its just b/c my energy is like that.
my whole being is just not stable.
and how do i fix that.?
there is no fixing..its who i am..at least i like to think i KNOW that.
if not, then what do I really know.? 

what happend.?